you were the mistake i knew i was making, , your the risk i knew i was taking

today was better than i thought. im surprisingly happy..but not actually looking forward to weekend. i actually have fuck all to do. well i do.but not looking forward too it.

anyway im writing everything on here..because i cant but anything on tumblr anymore. fuck datt.

Today started off with a few heys, then i turned into a quiet kid again..at break i sat in the corner and read my book..as did i in regestration. i felt like one of those people that craved attention because if anyone said anything to me id try and make a big conversation. aysha didnt talk to me much until lunch. everyone just kinda stared at me and wondered why the fuck i was reading a book. im reading because nobody is fucking talking to me! a few people asked me why i was off..i replyed with "i was ill" well no shit becca. I felt a little desperate in history (first two periods) i saw by myself and worked by myself..everyone else was already paired, hurt a little bit cos normally aysha would go with me. you and her and like bum chums..and i think your going to become annoyingly popular and ill rant about you all the time. but your rather irritating and stunning. i tried to make an effort with YOU today, but i didnt get much back, ohwell..After break i had double chem. which is never any fun..i sit on the same row as gully and aysha , luckily we didnt have any practical else i wouldve been FUCKED cos hannah my science partner wasnt in. everyone was engrosed in conversation so i didnt wanna fuck it up. so i did my work by myself. by accident i moved the chair next to me which aysha had her foot on..she had a go at me. i was like um sorry? i didnt say anything else. nobody ever answers questions in chem cos weve just got a new teacaher and shes annoying. so hannah toldd me not to answer anything..so atleast i got some sentences. maths..yeh i havent missed anything..got about 8 more months extra revision so im happy, else i wouldve had under a month for revising for my GCSE. which im not fucking ready for yet. Anyway lunch was okay, apart from i didnt get to eat anything. i went straight to form to go read, but i got talking with lizzie and some others, and then hannah was updating me on what she got her detention for, so i got talking with everyone and aysha talked to me some more which made me happy. i was hungry so i went to get some food but the deputy head like came in and was like no eating! and she had my lunch in her hand with a load of other bags:/ i wasnt even eating it so it made me annoyed that i no longer had any fucking lunch. so i complained about her to my ctzship teacher whos soft ha. i wasnt even that hungry ha:L maths after which we just talked and shit..then spanish which was normal just went and wasted time and ate my lunch in there. then music which was good me and gully just danced and stuff to some crappy music haha. got home did a 4 page essay in half an hour and didnt get on here till 6 which is good cos im trying not to spend as much time on here.:) evies out tonight so i dont think i can talk to her :[ because i just saw a blog i would like her to see.. hmm. yeh i tidied my room too. my allergic thingys gone now which made me feel a little bit less image obsessed. my face has cleared up too..so nice skin:] touch wood. so so far its okay..i guess