today was average.

i've started to write on here now. now that you've come along and messed up my brain. you wont get out will you? in there all day all night so i wake up in the morning still thinking about you and when i go to bed at night the last thought is you. just get out please. i cant think properly. i don't even know why your so special, there's just something about you. I've got back into that whole "in love " shitty little whole phase again. just like last time. it took me quite a while to get over that. it seemed like nothing to you because you had everyone after you. i hate you for that. because i felt special when you sent me a text or commented on my facebook . seeing you again was like arg. but that was last year. not that long ago to me.. but yes you were a fucking user. and im so scared of it happening again. i don't know why because nothings gonna go anywhere maybe? but your not as special as the last one... and i hate waiting for you to speak it hurts a little bit.. not many people are talking to me as much as yesterday yesterday was okay.. just time to sit down and chill for a bit because school is so tiring at the moment.